Ten Hours.
That is how long Sprout and Cubbie have to be at day care today.
I hate it.
Normally, it's only for eight hours. And only three days a week.
But when the Chief tells me I have to be at a meeting an hour and a half AFTER the end of my shift, I don't really have a choice.
This is where my two worlds collide. I try my best to balance career and kids, but sometimes they are in direct conflict.
There's no other option. I have to be at this meeting. It's regarding one of my investigations and I'm the only one who can answer all of the Chief's questions. It will be a bit intense and I will have to be confident that I have investigated every possible angle. At the same time, I have to try not to worry about my little guys.
I know the boys will be fine. We have an excellent in home day care provider. But it still makes me feel guilty, like I'm choosing my career over my children.
This only happens maybe two or three times a year, but it's still hard. So, needless to say, it will be all cuddles and hugs when we get home tonight.
Do YOU have any Mama Guilt today? Feel free to share in the comments section or blog about it and link back here.
11 comments:
I was on my computer for an hour straight yesterday. Totally zoning out!
Be blessed-
Amanda
My kids have eaten so much junk food and sweets over the past week. I've tried to balance with fruits and veggies, but I think sweets won this round. Of course, Christmas (and all the sugary goodies associated with it) only comes once a year.
It's not like you are leaving them in daycare to go out drinking or anything! Plus you said in home so that makes it even better! My teenagers love it when I am out all day!! Heehee!
I know the feeling. Sometimes we can adjust our schedule so that the late meeting is on regular time. Go in later to start work so that the meeting isn't beyond 8 hours. Fortunately for you, like you said, it's only a few times a year.
Oh, I am so sorry. I remember parent teacher conference days/nights when I worked outside of the home, and Snug would be at the sitter from 8am till 8pm. I hated it.
You're doing great to only have them there three days a week for 8 hours normally. I have a kid at my house who is with me 9+ hours a day!!!
You do a great job balancing! You are a great role model. :-)
Oh, Girl, I feel ya! As you saw, we're wandering our way into tax season, and it means that my kids are tucked in a corner of my office after school for a couple of hours until their dad gets off work. It's my only real time with them, and it's while I'm working. As much as I love my job, and love doing the tax thing, it's hard to balance with being a mom. Every year it's a little different - this will be our first one where all 3 kids are in school all day, which will help!
Yep, I hate those days too. They are the worst. My biggest guilt is letting them watch TV so much. Like - why can't I play with them and entertain them? I could probably do a much better job anyway. But sometimes, I think they prefer the TV over mommy.
I can agree with Marsha. junk and sweets have been a big part of our holiday. but, thankfully, the holidays are almost over!
hope your meeting went well. :)
Awww... I've been there too. When my kids were smaller we did our best to be home as much as possible but it was hard. It's still hard but now that they are a little older it's easier to spend time with them while we're doing the things that need to get done. We just have to make a conscience effort to involve them in the moment even if it means it will take that much longer to get things accomplished. The fact that you want to spend tonight cuddling them speaks volumes for the mommy you are!
(stopping by from SITS)
The good news is...it DOESN'T happen very often...so try not to beat yourself up about it when it DOES happen. Some of us have to work to provide for our families-it's just the way it is...It's not like you are leaving them 10 hours a day, every day - I know people like that.
Your boys are safe and happy and well loved - by all angles -
Happy New Year!
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